I can’t say I really had a relationship Fear until about 6 months ago. I didn’t know him, had never noticed him, but he’s been with me all my life.
And then all of a sudden, I saw him, and I knew he had been there all along. He was to blame for so many of my choices and life decisions, but I had never seen him there before.
He was lurking in the shadows, peering over at me, whispering in my ear.
“Don’t do that, you might get hurt,” he’d snarl.
Now that I know he’s there, convincing me all the time, I can stand up to him. I’ve been starting to speak up for myself.
He doesn’t hold up well to scrutiny.
“It might hurt a little, but what’s the absolute worst that can happen?” I ask Fear.
His reply is never as scary as his threat.
I’m so glad I noticed Fear 6 months ago because now I can see him more clearly. I can hold him up in the light and really pick him apart.
And you know what? He isn’t so scary any more. I won’t tell you he isn’t there because he most definitely is. The difference is now I make my own decisions even when he’s right by my side.